frustrated? yes.

It's easy to not think. It's easy to just go along with what's happening; nod and smile and do what would make the people around you most happy and most comfortable. It's easy to give up on your own thoughts. All you have to do is try.
But, see, I can't do that forever.
I shouldn't have to do that at all. I shouldn't have to dumb myself down to be happy. I shouldn't have to resort to false ignorance to be my security blanket.

Hindsight is 20/20.

I don't think that always makes people wiser. In fact, I don't think it makes people wiser very often at all.
You look back and realize what you lost, and how shitty you treated people, and there's nothing you can do about it. You can love them to the point it makes you sick, but you can't take back what you've done. After that, are you discouraged because there's nothing you can do about the past, and do you continue to act the way you always have? Or, do you decide that you want something better for the future and adapt accordingly?

I'm addressing everything at once. All these stupid boys and girls and their "love" for one another.
I am tired of the girls who enjoy messiness, who weave themselves into complicated love triangles and hexagons. I think a lot of them only do it for the excitement.
I am tired of the boys who fall for girls and then only sabotage themselves, acting like assholes and then apologizing immediately after.

Don't hurt the people you care about if you can help it.
I am not the most mature person, or the wisest. I have moments where I'm stupid and impulsive. I get angry, I get bitter, and sometimes I do things I regret.

But, if you care about something, take a minute and think about what you're doing to them, before you do it, while you're doing it, and after you do it.
I understand people make mistakes, but I never thought that mistakes were supposed to be an incessant thing.