It's not that I take a long time making decisions, really. More that I spend a lot of time doing nothing, and then finally making a rash decision at the end of things without having properly thought anything through. This is probably why I frequently do things and then question myself afterward.
I gave, literally, months and months of thought to this. I feel as though I should be prepared to make a decision and stand by it.
Clearly, I'm not. And clearly, I'm not just sitting here and doing nothing, either.
I want to feel free. I want to be able to go out whenever I want to with whoever I want to without being guilt tripped afterward. I want to be trusted. I want to be respected. I want the rules of my relationships to go both ways.
Pardon my language, but I'm tired of this one-sided bullshit. "I can, you can't."
I knew I was giving you what you wanted for a long time. I knew I was letting you get away with everything, and giving into the things you wanted. I had the wrong motivation, and the wrong idea about how to deal with things.
I think I've thought enough now...
there's nothing simple when it comes to you and I,
always something in this ever-changing life,
and there probably always will.
now that time is getting harder to come by,
the same arguments are always on our minds...
1 comment:
A lot of times, things turn into the "i can, you can't" situation.
Fortunately, most times it can be fixed.
Don't let it get the best of you though.
You & I both know how amazing you are and you shouldn't even be forced to frown.
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